Jan Cox Talk 2471

Wanting to ‘Awaken’ Is like Trying to Drive Yourself Crazy–Without Actually Doing So…

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News Item Gallery = jcap 2001-(2471)
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The News

COPYRIGHT 2000: JAN COX

2001-1
MENS’ LIVES CONSIST OF TWO GAMES GOING ON CONTINUALLY AND SIMULTANEOUSLY. THE BASIC, PRIMARY GAME IS PLAYED PHYSICALLY, AND IS ULTIMATELY A MATTER OF LIFE AND DEATH.
THE SECOND GAME GOES ON AS THE PHYSICAL ONE IS BEING PLAYED AND TAKES PLACE IN EACH PLAYER’S HEAD,
AND CAN BE FREELY IMAGINED TO BE AS SERIOUS AS A HEART ATTACK, OR AS FROTHY AS A LIMERICK.
THE TWO GAMES ARE SO INTERTWINED IN MOST MENS’ LIVES THAT NO DISTINCTION
IS GENERALLY MADE BETWEEN THE TWO;
THIS UNREALIZED PLAYING OF TWO SEPARATE GAMES SIMULTANEOUSLY
IS THE LIFE OF ORDINARY MEN, AND IS WHAT THE FEW REFER TO AS:
“DREAMING WITH YOUR EYES OPEN.”;
THEY SAY THAT AWAKENING FROM THE DREAM IS ACCOMPLISHED MAINLY THROUGH A
CONSTANT AWARENESS OF THE “TWO-GAME-SITUATION”,
AND THE REALIZATION THAT FROM THE ONE PLAYED IN THE HEAD — YOU CAN WITHDRAW.
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FOR MANY YEARS, ONE MAN BELIEVED THAT HE “LEARNED SOMETHING” FROM EVERY UNPLEASANT, UNEXPECTED THING THAT OCCURRED IN HIS LIFE.
LATER ON HE SAW IT MORE AS A MATTER OF HIM HAVING BEEN.ENTERTAINED –:MENTALLY. BY ALL OF THE UNPLEASANT, UNEXPECTED THINGS THAT HAD HAPPENED TO HIM.
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ONE MAN DELIVERS UP A SHORT GAGGLE OF POETIC MUSING CONCERNING THAT CERTAIN SUBJECT:
“I WISH MY MIND WAS STILL, THAT’S WHAT I WOULD PREFER, BUT THOUGHTS WANT IT TO MOVE, WHICH I STILL LET OCCUR.”
NUMBER Two: “I HATE HOW MY THOUGHTS,
CARRY ME AWAY,
I HATE IT — I HATE IT, YET ALLOW IT ANY WAY.”
2001-2
THIRD ONE: “OH, THE TORMENT,
OH, THE WOE,
I DESPISE MY INNER LIFE, YET ON WITH IT I GO.”
FOURTH OFFERING:”I’LL TELL YOU ALL ABOUT ME, IT WON’T TAKE MUCH TO DO IT,
I’M A MAN WITH A HABIT I FIND REVOLTING,
YET STILL I GIVE IN TO IT.”
HE THEN PROFFERS THIS CODA:”BEIN’ AN ORDINARY HOOMAN BEING AIN’T ALL THAT BAD
‘LESS’N YOU DISCOVER AN ALTERNATIVE.”
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ABOVE THE ENTRANCE TO A CERTAIN SECRET BUILDING WERE THESE WORDS:
“AN AWAKENED MAN IS ONE WHO HAS COME TO REALIZE THAT THERE ARE ONLY TWO THINGS THE MIND CAN DO: SOLVE PHYSICAL PROBLEMS, AND — ENTERTAIN.
You ARE FULLY ENLIGHTENED WHEN YOU NO LONGER IMAGINE OR HOPE OTHERWISE.
IF THESE WORDS APPEAL TO YOU — DO COME IN, YOU ARE WELCOME HERE.”
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ONE MAN MAKES THIS OBSERVATION: “WHAT I CALL MY ‘MIND’ IS PART OF A WAGON TRAIN; IT IS HITCHED UP FRONT AND REAR, RIGHT AND LEFT TO. ALL OTHER MINDS, AND. IS CONTINUALLY PUSHED AND PULLED, TUGGED AND JERKED THEREBY.
HE THEN OFFERS A CONCLUDING STANZA:
“ALTHOUGH ALL ARE HITCHED TO THIS TRAIN, AND SEPARATION THEREFROM IS UNCLEAR, I — AMONG A FEW OTHERS —
INTEND PRECISELY THAT.
GOOD BYE, WAGON TRAIN -SO LONG, EVERYONE ELSE —
FARE THEE WELL, OH MIND WHICH NEVER WAS ALL MINE —
FARE WELL, FROM ME TO YOU.”

2001-3
To BE “AWAKE” WOULD BE TO SAY TO THE MOMENT:
“STOP — DO NOT MOVE, STAY AS YOU ARE.”,
THEN EACH MOMENT WOULD BE INFINITELY BEAUTIFUL, AND TOTALLY SUFFICIENT UNTO ITSELF.
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ONE MAN SAID TO HIMSELF:
“I CANNOT FAULT MEN FOR HOLDING TO WHATEVER ILLUSIONS MAKE THEIR LIVES HAPPIER.” — HE THEN COMMENCED TO PONDER THE USE OF SUCH A VIEW REGARDING HIS DESIRE TO CHANGE HIS STATE OF MIND.
AND ANOTHER GUY SAYS:
“WANTING TO AWAKEN IS LIKE — TRYING-TO-DRIVE-YOURSELF-CRAZY -WITHOUT ACTUALLY DOING SO.”
AND A FRIEND OF HIS LATER MUSED:
“JUST WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN, ‘WANTING-TO-AWAKEN’,
AND, ‘TRYING-TO-AWAKEN’91 “
AND IN THAT SECRET BUILDING I MENTIONED EARLIER
ONCE MET A GROUP OF MEN WHO SOUGHT ENLIGHTENMENT,
AND WHO EACH DAY INDIVIDUALLY ASKED THEMSELVES:
“WHAT WOULD IT TAKE THIS VERY INSTANT TO TOTALLY SATISFY ME?”
…OH YEAH. SOMETHING ELSE: NONE OF THEM WOULD EVER ACCEPT WHATEVER RESPONSE THEY CAME UP WITH
FOR LONGER THAN THAT ONE DAY.
AND JUST NOW YET ANOTHER CHAP HAS SHOWED UP WITH THIS NOTATION:
“MY MIND — MY CONSCIOUSNESS WOULD NOT — COULD NOT
REMAIN IN THE CONDITION I SO DISLIKE IF — IF ONLY
IT WOULD CEASE TO ‘QUOTE ITSELF’.”, AND IS HE NOT ON TO SOMETHING WORTHWHILE?!,
FOR WOULD NOT A MIND AWAKE BE ONE WHOSE ONLY COMMENT, (IF PUSHED TO MAKE ONE),
WOULD BE. “I HAVE NO COMMENT! AND DON’T QUOTE ME ON THAT!”
SUCH WOULD REPRESENT A NON-STANDARD SCHOONER IN THE MENTAL WAGON TRAIN WHICH NEVER RETURNS TO
ROLL AGAIN THRU
RUTS IT’S ALREADY MADE;

2001-4
AND ONE MAN SAYS:
“THE EASIEST WAY TO RE-FOLD AND STORE A MAP IS TO — THROW IT AWAY.”
…AND AREN’T YOU STILL RELISHING THAT EARLIER GUY’S COMMENT: “WANTING TO AWAKEN IS LIKE
TRYING TO DRIVE YOURSELF CRAZY WITHOUT ACTUALLY DOING SO.”